Night Lights

Last night I had hoped to work by the light of the moon. Unfortunately it was under the clouds. Still the energy that came with the full moon and the energy following the eclipse was still present. 

Earlier in the day I had prepared those things I was to work with and I had hoped to do some gentle workings more in the area of affirmations than anything else.  As I sat here last night firing off an email in response to a post elsewhere, I took notice of my one cat sitting in the utility room. She had been there the previous night as well. My first thought was “oh no, not another wee mouse that has made it’s way inside.”  She is fast and accurate and I knew if there was a mouse it was doomed. Yes I am tenderhearted and was not in the mood to witness her work. As I watched her, her gaze followed the walls and ceiling and I knew at once it could not be a mouse.  As I watched I nearly jumped out of my chair as a small light flew past the doorway of the room.  Now, I feel things all the time. I’ve admitted to that. I sense when things are close.  Seeing things, however, is something different to get used to.  Other than the white mist, I have seen nothing and have been quite content to leave it that way. 

The cat proceeded to run into the main room where I was sitting and follow the wall. I did my best to remain calm and proceeded with my workings lighting the room with candles. I saw the light two more times, in the left side of the room.  Who or what was here, I don’t know. It remains here today. The cats are poised by one side of the room and have been there for four hours.  There is nothing menacing about it and in fact it seems rather shy.  I have not seen anything since last night.

Whether this is something new that is changing with me, I can’t be sure.  It would seem that my ability to perceive things is shifting. Perhaps it was just the moon and the events that took place surrounding it. If it is a shift, I’m not sure how I feel about it, but I  suppose I’ll cultivate it like all things and move forward. 

 

 

More Things That Go Bump In The Night

Some days ago I wrote a post that talked about a white mist I had seen one day in this very room. At the time of that experience, my cats started sitting by one of the vents in the living room. I thought at the time that perhaps a rodent had gotten in but that didn’t turn out to be the case. They don’t sit by there every day but some days they are glued to the spot.

I have not seen this mist since that first day. Last night my son went into the living room from this room. When he entered he saw again, white, over in the area of the vent. It left quickly upon his arrival.  At the time of the first vent activity with the pets, my daughter had told me there was a crack in the ceiling below where the vent was located. As I was blogging I remembered and looked behind me. There indeed was about a two foot crack in the ceiling, almost a cut like mark.  

How the vent, the crack and the white mist are related, I really can’t say. I know that something is with us in our home. It is not malevolent in any way, and appears to be curious and rather shy. I have felt things at times, when I sit here writing. Sometimes it’s a touch on the hair, sometimes it’s a touch on the face or arm, all very soft. Again it’s not alarming just very gentle and it never feels alarming.

 Someone with more experience in these things told me that a white mist is as close to materializing as a spirit can come without actually showing themselves. I’m wondering if we will ever see a person and if we do, if I can remain calm.  I’m hoping that I get the opportunity to find out more but as these things go, you can never tell.  

 

 

Things That Go Bump In the Night

This fascinating topic came up this morning, so I thought I would put down some the experiences I have had over the years with homes and haunting. I am very open about it, but I understand those who cannot embrace it. My oldest son, who experienced the presence of things at our first home, cannot deal with it now and prefers to think it isn’t there.  It is a most unsettling feeling at times but most often one that is not malevolent in any way. Movies and media have made this a terrifying thing to many and that is unfortunate.  

 Our first home, the one my two oldest kids grew up in, had someone we chose to call “Harold” in it. It seemed that house was filled with a certain chaos after we moved in and did not bode well for relationships of any kind. The people who lived there split and sold it to us and my ex and I split shortly thereafter. I don’t blame the split on the house, and in fact should probably be happy if it in any way hastened it,  but that’s another story for another day.   I stayed there for many years as it was a nice area. Harold would take things, knock on doors, turn lights on and off and basically just do silly stuff. My kids were much more aware of the presence, and told me years later that they would run up the basement stairs as they were uneasy and felt something was following them. It just annoyed the heck out of me and I came to demand things back and we reached an understanding I guess. There was occasionally other energy around and at holidays it would peak. My daughter moved her room to the basement when she was older, and experienced trouble with her electronics on a regular basis, something that will be affected by a presence of energy. My fathers home had little of this and I don’t remember much from when I was a child. 

When we moved to our home where we currently live, we were not really tuned into anything as we were just so happy to be here. I don’t know when it all began,  but it seems to have started around Halloween, a time when the the veil between the worlds is said to be very thin. Since that time I have experienced pranks, child types of behaviors, closeness and malevolence. As another poster put it earlier today, some spirits choose to stay, for whatever reason and removing them, especially malevolent ones, can be a difficult task at best.

Most of my life I have had some sort of awareness of things around me. This has intensified as I have gotten older, something that surprised me. These things come to me in different ways but I rarely see anything. I will however, relate my experience the other day. I had gotten up from a nap and came downstairs to the computer. In front of me and covering the left hand side of the room was a white mist. I looked for a minute wondering if my eyes were still goofy from sleep. I sat down and it continued.  I don’t remember feeling anything specific with it just seeing a thick white mist. I called out a name, really silly, as the person I called for wasn’t there, but I felt a bit uneasy. I rarely see anything so to see this in front of me was unsettling.  It then started to disappear and as I turned my head I saw something  out of the corner of my eye. Then it was gone. I have no idea who was here or why. Apparently it wasn’t expecting anyone to come down to the lower level.  Whether my experiences are now changing and I will see more things I don’t know. My way has been to feel things and quite frankly I’ve been more than satisfied with that. 

I’m always concerned when I see people go looking for it, those who play with summoning spirits and such. Why anyone would do this is beyond me. I’ve never had the need to do this as they seem to find me.  Be careful what you wish for I always say, you might get it.  Where one spirit comes so might another.  The spirit world is real one that moves around us day by day. Each of us has a different awareness one that can change as we grow. It is a world of connection, of deep feeling and emotions.  Let it rest gently undisturbed.

The Path I Follow

When I started this blog it was a place to put my thoughts and feelings,  a place to record a journey, one still rather new to me. I never intended it to be an end all source on all things pagan. Certainly I lack the background to provide this and have no desire to do research reports and post them here. This blog is for my personal journey and my thoughts and feelings experienced along the way.  

While I may post things about Goddesses and Pagan holidays, these are linked to their sources.  Again, for those who would wish a sound background in all things pagan, there are many books to be had and many sources on the internet. Personally I am learning as I go along and am not sure, as I said in my previous post, where my path is taking me.  

There have been many good people that I have found along the way, those who would help me let go and find out where it is I really belong.  There are also those who for whatever reason, use their knowledge, or what they perceive as being  knowledge,  to beat down those who are already stumbling down a new road filled with twists and turns.  For this reason I think many, including myself,  will end up carving out some sort of unique path of our own.  

The moon does not care what path I follow, nor do the stars.  Those things within me that fill and move me forward will stay with me no matter which way the road turns.